Lonely, insecure, pathetic, useless, nothing, waste of space, disappointment, disgrace, more pathetic, ignored, lousy, unworthy, not good enough, downgrade, sad, annoying, hopeless, loser, has-been, failure, miserable, puny, unappreciated…
I hate feeling like this. why? How? How can one human being make another Human being feel so horrible about them-self?! Being single and lonely felt a lot less painful than being Lonely and in a relationship. Is it silly? idk. Who am I trying to fool? this shit sucks! It hurts! I fucking hate it! I’m scared. I’m terrified of losing us but if it should ever happen, I’ll be ready. I had a lot of practice. Sleepless nights,lonely nights, crying myself to sleep, the lying, the anger, voldemort! ughhhh! what is wrong with me?!! idk. I guess I’m expecting too much? I guess I just want a romance like that couple in the movies… Pathetic right? Whatevs.
So, uhhh I don’t know if this is bad but I kind of want a pug… Or a fluffy puppy or some kind of pet that’s NOT a cat…
I love you. I love you because you made me actually want to try to make us work. I love you because you make me very happy yet you piss me the fuck off at the same time. I love you because I mother your child; she’s OUR child. I love you because you see things I can’t even see. I love you because you understand me more than I understand myself. I love you because no matter how bitchy and lazy I get, you’re still here with a smile and open arms. I love you because the outcome of our fights rock! :P I love you because when i begin to lose hope and start questioning us, you reassure me that we’re gonna be together FOREVER & that you’re not going anywhere. I love you because you drive me crazy. I love you because you don’t HAVE to put up with me but you do anyway. I love you because you’re the sweetest. I love you because you have the cutest smile ever! I love you because you never gave up. I love you because you’re pushy. I love you because you’re forgiving. I love you because you keep our company, company. I love you because you’re a tough little softy. I love you. I love your family. I wouldn’t trade us for anything, I swear. I love you because you’re more than perfect. I love you because you are MINE!
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